Dear life, a little happiness won't hurt. I won't be mad if I'll receive some.

lol. I've been writing a lot of frustrations lately and to think I'm on vacation now. It feels like I'm getting broken deeper and deeper. I even swore to be a lot more positive. I guess optimistic people are really the emotional ones. Uwaaaah~ I'm so effin depressed like my mood is below the sea level, like deep deep down the Earth's effin core! Have you ever felt like this? Like something is stuck on your chest that it feels so heavy and tears just slide on your eyes without even noticing. I've even feel like screaming, "Oh fuck life in the whole neighborhood," (which of course I can't)

I've been productive anyway, cleaned my room yesterday and finished another 10 pages on my math logbook today. I want to have a job but I don't think I could handle it once I return to university.

On the other hand, (seems like I have a lot to tell, lol) HALOWEEN is just around the corner! I wonder if I should dress myself but I’m so… Ugggh… sad to do, but I want to! I’ve been fighting with my brain because of it. I’ve been itching to talk and to talk but I just don’t have anyone to listen. Yes, I’m a Rapunzel stuck on her tower right now without anyone to talk to or maybe I should start creating an imaginary friend and play hide and sick with her. *sigh* I’m getting crazy of loneliness!

Darn frustrations. Hate you. I want to be happy you know. I just don’t know how. Maybe I need a friend.

My parents won't help. When these two fight, I wonder why I'm always the one to suffer? I haven't eaten anything for the whole day and I'm the one receiving all of their complains. Life is so great right? Wherever I go, whether school of home, it's all messed up.

Live☆Laugh☆Love

Shigeru