Calm Envy

This song is written out a woman's point of view. She doesn't want her boyfriend to leave.

CALM ENVY

The GazettE

Seems like I'm getting melancholic from the sound of the down-pouring rain
Who's dream is this promise in, who is this dream for I wonder?

「I want to see all of you.」 「I want to love all of you.」
Please do it for me

When our hands are connected, there is usually a unknown scent coming from the reverse hand.
「I want to see all of you.」 「I want to love all of you.」
Even though I breath out regularly, it seems like I'm going to crumble

If you would love me deeper than those words
I could believe you just by standing in front of me.
In the suddenly shown past, it was easy every time we would touch
Tears are floating in the blank spaces that I can't fill

It seems like you're breaking away from my inside, you who is beside me also when we snuggle up in peace

「I want to see all of you.」 「I want to love all of you.」
The answer is drowning in a smile
「You don't love, the everyday shadow when it was lost.」
I embrace them in my arms the more I can't make them disappear

If you would love me, even though I threw those words at you
I could believe you just by standing in front of me.
In the suddenly shown past, it hurts every time you touch me
I want to love you to my inner emptiness.
Because I wipe away my tears so you won't be able to notice them

There is nothing more to laugh about in front of me.

We aren't anymore, just hiding the 'goodbye'
I want to be together with you, crying about this 'goodbye'
More than thinking back upon I want to forget.
and now leave me in this empty space.
Don't chase those long passed days.

Don’t leave anything more than what’s already left.
"At least..."
Holding onto this goodbye
Me, sleeping as I hold onto this good bye,
and my faint heat that vanishes like tobacco.

A person that loved the days that won't come back.

Live☆Laugh☆Love

Shigeru

rain rain!

Today it's raining... hibernation period.

Live☆Laugh☆Love

Shigeru

Shopping :))

The supposedly study day period became a shopping day, yay! Magnetism should wait for another day, (haha). I’m so happy I bought a new music player. It’s satisfying, hmmm~ I promise to take care of it. I found so many cute things today. I have to save money so they just have to find another owner, poor things^^ Money is really important, isn’t it? You could buy many things and make yourself happy. This may sound materialistic but money could make people so happy. Now I can watch the GazettE pvs without being stuck at our pc. My whole world revolves around this band. I don’t know if this is temporary but I don’t want to lose this feeling. Their songs make me feel that they know and understand what I am going through. The solitude that I always feel disappeared because of them. I’m in love with their songs and I’m in love with their composers. In the old days, I’m not into music but they gave me a reason to love it. Now, I’m drowning with the songs they warmth my heart with.

Last Sunday I bought these shoes:

Live☆Laugh☆Love

Shigeru

Lucky :b

(late post)
(Saturday June 5)

The God of Luck is with me this first week of June (haha). I’m so happy that I always succeed of what am I doing plus I gained so many things. I feel like a very awesome girl. Well, maybe it’s because of what happened last month. I felt that everyday I’m losing important things but now… I’m actually having things on my way (just like a payback).

Today…
*I appreciated life even more
*I found the English translation of the blog I’ve been craving to read
*I finally downloaded the two concert videos of my favorite band and succeeded on downloading the software for file extension program.
*I finally ate meat again (we’ve been eating seafood a lot these past few days)
*I received my hair treatment gift for my birthday^^

Haha^^ Looks like a scene from a horror movie.

Live☆Laugh☆Love

Shigeru