Morning View

It's been a while since I wrote something here. Hello my personal blog, my personal space. Right now, my time is devoted with work and LIFE ISSUES. Things are changing. Something inside me is taking shape but it feels like I'm losing myself. My mind is full of thoughts... about the future... about my dreams. Fear exists.

There are so many things I wanted to do, to achieve but I'm always burdened with my own weaknesses and even though I clearly recognize them, why is it so hard to change? I want to become a better person. I want to mature. I should focus on my priorities and let go of my passion for a while. Well, easy to be said than to be done. How can I let go of something I REALLY LOVE? Damn, it's hard!...even just for two years.

CAREER. I'm having my internship at a television network. Experiencing the 'almost' reality of adults made me realize and think about life. It gave me direction and DOUBTS at the same time. I'm falling in love with the field of broadcasting. However, it seems like I'm only seeing the good side of things and it feels like I will also love the field of communications if I only chose to work at the telecommunication industry. But still the bottom line is: I want to work at a company which (1) has a good pay, (2) I enjoy, (3) and could bring me to Japan. God knows how I've always wanted to go on that country.

CELEBRITIES. When you work at a TV network not to mention the largest, the oldest, and the leading network in the country, accept that you'll meet a celebrity whether you like or love it. You'll meet your favorite cosplayer, your favorite band vocalist and even your celebrity crush. You'll have butterflies on your stomach every time! It's amazing right only that it's like a drug especially if you have an inferiority complex like me. Not that it's a total drawback 'cause you'll find yourself wanting to improve but still a STRESS is a stress. Although I'm really happyヾ(*・ω・)ノ゜(starting to lose sense)

TV Show Taping

STUDIES. Aaaah, I don't want to go back to university this June! It's my last year and expectantly things are going to be rougher and tougher from now on. I have to let go of my hobbies, fangirling, dress-up, etc. It's so hard because these are the things I love and been my inspiration for a long time but I know I have to so that I can focus and concentrate on more important things (but these are...  (☍﹏⁰) really important things too!) I just have to endure it until I graduated and passed my board exams. *sigh* It's too long.

There are still so much random thoughts on my mind. Even I couldn't settle everything right now, I'm going to move forward. Let's do our best (`･ω･´)9 "I'll try hard!"

Goodnight!