Luck has finally worn off. The crazy days of my life had begun. I’m feeling so alone again. I’m searching for someone’s warmth, the warmth I really missed so much. I know that she loves me but sometimes I wish she’ll allow me to take her for granted. I wish she’ll let me feel that I’m the most important person in her world… even once.
June 15, 2010
Classes started, I don’t feel like going but I have to. It ended up tiring but fun.
June 16, 2010
It’s Wednesday… I don’t have any classes. Don’t feel like going anywhere, stayed at our house, browse the net, and transform into a crazy fan girl again.
Read so many fan fictions today. Awesome!
June 17, 2010
I have two classes. The hell I’ve got to wake up early. Slept two hours, get prepared and returned to university. I’m inspired so I really feel like studying. I decided to do my best.
The steep path that you'll be walking will be lit, but full of thorns. Good or bad, from start to finish, you're gonna do it anyway, so make your dream come true for those who watch over you, for the ones you love and for yourself.
Get your senses to a super high level, and walk your own path today!
June 18, 2010
Euphoria of June started to fade off, time to get back to the hard days of my life. Humor has its limitation. I’ve felt that my ego was stepped upon. He stabbed me where it really hurts the most. I’m cursing him right now. I’ll forgive but the “us” before will never return.
Don't judge me. You don't have the right to. You don't know what I've been through. You don't know what I've felt or what I'm feeling right now. So find something better to do with your time... than judge someone you know nothing about.
This is a really bad day for me :((
June 19, 2010
If I sleep eternally will someone notice this pain?
I don’t know how it happens but I didn’t wake up this day. Did I die? No, no, I’m just tired physically, mentally, and emotionally. I’m already broken.
With one’s back to the wall,
Fear to the death and regrets to the life…
In dazzling morning, I can say good-bye.
Hey, tell me, something to shake and ignite my heartbeat…
To “the brave new world” for “the Wailing Wall”
June 20, 2010
It’s today. I thought it’s going to be a nice day but I destroyed it. I’m lost right now. I couldn’t find what I’m searching for. I couldn’t find happiness again. The color of rainbow that I’m embracing already vanished with the drops of falling rain. Can I bring it back once again?
Yes of course, I’ll have that best smile again… that will never be broken for sure.
“We’re like a set of puzzle pieces. We fit together so perfectly that it’s hard to imagine we were broken at some point. And like any puzzle, those pieces always look better when they’re together, not when they’re separated.”
“Sometimes pieces don’t fit. Like us, we’re not always happy but any puzzle could be solved no matter how hard it is.”
Sorry God for not attending the mass today. I tried but I failed. I’ll make it up next time. I promise. Thanks for brightening my day. I know you're always here... with me.
Live☆Laugh☆Love
Shigeru
I'm torn between studies and obsession. I have so many dreams in the future but my desires in the present keep conquering me. What should I do now? How can I get over this? Something this wrong should end but if this is what makes me happy, like this is all that matters, how can I control my self in embracing such pleasure? I'm a girl living in desire. 
