Happy Birthday Leader-san!

The transition from October 27 to 28 is always a hell of fun!

OCTOBER 27: Mii's Birthday ♥

I've ate a lot today (mostly sweets) and it made me so fired up.

My mom went to Tagaytay a day before her birthday and we took the opportunity to prepare a surprise for her since she'll be staying there until today. We've decorated the house (oh my, I'm so proud of myself lol) and prepared so much food and presents. Some of my relatives came, it's just a small party since it's too late at night.

OCTOBER 28: Kai's Birthday ♥

I love how the GazettE's fans are still united! We're able to make his birthday a trending topic on Twitter! HappyBDAyKAI was #4 on TT. Yeah! We rock! For those who don't know, he's a drummer with sexy arms and killer smile. I like his adorableness. He's the leader and mother of the band. Every member is such an inspiration to me and he's one of the people I respect the most.


"Whether or not it was going to be a success or failure didn't matter. All of us ran towards Dome with all we got. And that alone was really significant.


In the end, all our efforts were worth it. It wasn't a mistake that we ran towards our dream without being concerned about the end results. Because of that, we were able to perform the live we wanted to."

--Kai (2011), Garish Room 12

CONGRATULATIONS SIXTH GUNS!
GAZErock will never die.

Live☆Laugh☆Love

Shigeru

Dear life, a little happiness won't hurt. I won't be mad if I'll receive some.

lol. I've been writing a lot of frustrations lately and to think I'm on vacation now. It feels like I'm getting broken deeper and deeper. I even swore to be a lot more positive. I guess optimistic people are really the emotional ones. Uwaaaah~ I'm so effin depressed like my mood is below the sea level, like deep deep down the Earth's effin core! Have you ever felt like this? Like something is stuck on your chest that it feels so heavy and tears just slide on your eyes without even noticing. I've even feel like screaming, "Oh fuck life in the whole neighborhood," (which of course I can't)

I've been productive anyway, cleaned my room yesterday and finished another 10 pages on my math logbook today. I want to have a job but I don't think I could handle it once I return to university.

On the other hand, (seems like I have a lot to tell, lol) HALOWEEN is just around the corner! I wonder if I should dress myself but I’m so… Ugggh… sad to do, but I want to! I’ve been fighting with my brain because of it. I’ve been itching to talk and to talk but I just don’t have anyone to listen. Yes, I’m a Rapunzel stuck on her tower right now without anyone to talk to or maybe I should start creating an imaginary friend and play hide and sick with her. *sigh* I’m getting crazy of loneliness!

Darn frustrations. Hate you. I want to be happy you know. I just don’t know how. Maybe I need a friend.

My parents won't help. When these two fight, I wonder why I'm always the one to suffer? I haven't eaten anything for the whole day and I'm the one receiving all of their complains. Life is so great right? Wherever I go, whether school of home, it's all messed up.

Live☆Laugh☆Love

Shigeru

Garden Wedding.

Today, I had so much fun with the koi fishes. lol.

It's my Auntie's wedding day today.
Uwaaaah! I love it! It's a garden wedding with a Japanese furnished house. I actually thought of staying there for the rest of my life. lol. The rest of the pictures are still on my camera. I'm so lazy to upload it. *gets kicked*

Well, I think life gets lighter day by the day. I decided to enjoy these 2 weeks away from university.

I wonder what should I do to relax... hmmm...

Sadder :'(

The truth is… I’m still not okay. It feels like everything is falling apart. I want to be depressed but there are many things that are making me happy. I can’t understand myself anymore. I’m pausing for my happiness… yeah, it’s wrong. But what should I do? If my mind couldn’t erase the worst thing that can make my emotions go upside down. If falling down into the chaos gives me hope that there’s a chance to make it alright, seems like life doesn’t want me to experience happiness. It just sucks.  It feels like I won’t be able to be truly happy again. My sincere smiles are fading and I couldn’t make it stop.  

Live☆Laugh☆Love

Shigeru