No entry at my LJ for today (O.o)

I don't know, I don't feel like writing anything. I took my time reading other's fanfics. They're really good. Sometimes I envy them but at the same time be inspired. I'm waiting for the updates of one of the fiction. I want her to continue her story so soon.

College keeps bothering me and I'm getting stuck somewhere. I'm having a slump, that's it's all about.

My addiction is conquering my studies. And guess what, I designed a circuit from the GazettE members names... IN KANJI! It's freakin' hard! I made three...

ルキ (Ruki )

れいた (Reita)

戒 (Kai)

I wanted to design: 麗 (Uruha)

but... it's a very COMPLICATED THING! I can't! Why the kanji of Uruha is made to be so hard?

Tomorrow, I'll have my Physics and Logic class. I have to shop for a drill bit and ferric chloride after.
I always end up being bankrupt! Great!

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Shigeru

Who invented Math anyway?

Never once I thought that FACTORING will devour my life like this.

I'm in charge with letter L to U.
How can I draw the curve if I can't even factor the equation?!
DAMN CALCULUS!

Can you see the problems?

I've got a hundred of reasons to avoid ENGINEERING,
so why the hell did I take it?
-(O.o)-

I'm starting to write fanfics.

Visit my livejournal account:

http://mypaperdoll1611.livejournal.com/

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Shigeru

think* think*

COSPLAYS!!!
It will be my first this October.
I'm still thinking what I should wear though.
I'm kinda inspired with Hizaki of Versailles:

He's really beautiful, isn't he?

Yeah, for those who don't know... He's a guy.

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Shigeru

Rubi

It's been a long time since I've last updated this. Now, I don't know what to write. My days were filled with happy and sad thoughts. Everyday at university seems so tiring. I just can't gain any strength to move forward. I wish life will be easier. No no, maybe I'm the one whose making it hard for me. I decided to do my best but I just got these complains every now and then. I sucks. haha^^

So... but you see... I'm really happy! I experienced many things for example... hmmm... My first time riding the MRT. I always ride the LRT to Engineering Building but there's this time I have to ride the other one. It started like this. I don't know that there is a segregation thing and women are supposed to ride the first half of the train and the men are at the second half. I was mixed up with the guys and missed the train. It' so damn cramped! Then there's this pager that tells something about the train policies and I just realized that I'm with the wrong crowd. So I went to the other side and successfully rode the train. The train stopped at my station. I can't get off! People at the LRT station are really polite that they wait for the people to alight first before pushing themselves in so I was shocked here at the MRT. They're so rude! We're just three people getting off but it took forever before we successfully did. I thought I'm going to die that time.

I just thought that many of my problems are brought up by my stubbornness. Well, it's not that bad but sometimes I just don't know when to stop (or maybe I don't really want to). I want the world in my hands. Oh, I remembered Rubi! She's a character from a TV series. I'm more like her conquered by desires, devoured by luxuries. Here she is (Philippine Version):

I love Angelica Panganiban since I was young!

I'm currently downloading something. Of course, it's something concerned with the GazettE. I can't seem to get over with them. I just love them. I hope I could attend their lives. I just need more money for the plane ticket and concert ticket. Haha^^ I have many things I've been saving for. I don't know when will I stop craving for money. I really sucks.

My thoughts are starting to muddle up. I'll try to write later :))

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Shigeru

I'm still weak :'(

Why I can't imagine myself standing on my own feet and becoming a part of the adult world? How can I be this weak?

Recently, I became so scared of almost... EVERYTHING.

I'm scared of the future. What if I can't make it? What if I just disappoint the people who cares for me? What if everything I've worked on doesn't have any meaning at all? Something like that... It's just that... I can't imagine myself being a part of the adult world. Anyway... 4 more years to go. I can't let myself down by those "what ifs..." I decided to give my best from now on.

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Shigeru

Rolling days^^

I'm torn between studies and obsession. I have so many dreams in the future but my desires in the present keep conquering me. What should I do now? How can I get over this? Something this wrong should end but if this is what makes me happy, like this is all that matters, how can I control my self in embracing such pleasure? I'm a girl living in desire.

Self-control is a must! I should get over with it! I'm really exhausted this week with my university matters that my insides are really craving for fan fictions, anime newsreel, and my Vrock love. I keep devouring myself. I should rest, DEFINITELY! I have to prepare myself for another tiring week. I haven't done any homework, reports, or research today so surely my tomorrow will be so busy. I wish my addiction won't harm me tomorrow.

Oh wait, it's Sunday already! Arggh! How did it became so late? Time slips in my hands. Got to sleep... or maybe after watching two PVs. After all, no fan girl thing after I wake up. I'll let myself enjoy at least before I rest.

"My heart is closed off, everything frightens me,

How far must I go? I cannot walk any further!"

- SERENADE by Versailles

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Shigeru

          

New blog :))

Two days of no classes... tonight, I'm updating my blog. I like it to have a doll motif. I'm thinking of what else I could put in here, hmmm~ yeah. I hope it'll turn out fine.

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