Pathetic

I don’t feel like I can do it. It feels like as time passes by, the things that I could do become less and lesser. Maybe there’s something really wrong on me. Unable to do the things that others could do, even the things that I used to be so good at seems to be so far away from my grasps. I don’t think I’ll become any use of the society. I don’t know what I could do and if there is, it won’t be special. It just doesn’t feel so right after all. Having more of the things that I want, I don’t know if I could reciprocate the things that my parents give to me. I don’t want to be a burden. I don’t want to be a pitiful person. I want to do something for somebody. I just don’t know if I could be a useful adult someday. “Will I be able to stand up on my own? Will I forever lean on someone?” things like that starts to trouble me.

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Shigeru

Happy Birthday Aoi!

JANUARY 20

It's the dorky and Uruha's boyfriend Aoi's birthday!!! lol

I'm planning to make a fic but my schedule is so hectic!
Damn! I'll try it tomorrow!

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Shigeru

URUHA EVERYWHERE!

I discovered something amazing today! Wooosh! I have my Facebook Banner!

I LURV THIS!

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Shigeru

4bia

I went to Valerie's house and watched 4bia (Movie 1 and 2)! It's funny how this horror movie turned out to be so comical! *laughs* I couldn't forget about Aey, Ter, Shin, and Puak! They're so funny!

We ate so much chocolates! Yeah!

My favorite part is in Phoabia 2 "In the End."

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Shigeru

Trains

The trains stopped.

*sigh* don’t know how to make an entry today. It’s a mixture of sad and happy feelings. Hope everything becomes fine soon.

I’ve been really lazy these days. I’m planning to skip my PE class tomorrow.

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Shigeru

Resume of Classes 2011

Dear Oba-chan,

Today is the resume of classes. I was excused during our prelims. You know why *laughs*. It’s because I was crying a lot the time you left us. BUT! Don’t worry anymore! I’m fine and doing well. I haven’t reviewed properly for Physics *sigh* so I’m really thankful he scheduled my exam in the next meeting. Hope everything went well this coming Thursday. Ah, I remembered what you keep telling me before I leave. It’s our secret chant^^

“God, cover me with your precious blood.”

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Shigeru

My Parents' 18th Anniversary

Dear Oba-chan,

Today is my parent’s 18th wedding anniversary!

I remember when you’re still alive, you keep telling us stories about their love, how you didn’t expect that mom will marry dad, and how you take care of me when I was young. Thank you for everything. I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t because of you. I love you so much!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MOM AND DAD!

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Shigeru

1.1.11

Dear Oba-chan,

How are you? We visited your grave today. It’s such a nice weather for the first day of the year. I hope you’ve reached heaven now with God and his angels. We took so many pictures. Grandpa’s memory wasn’t that vivid anymore. He couldn’t remember your death or perhaps he refuse to, even that’s a mystery until now. You will always be in his heart, in our heart. You’re really an important and the only love he could keep. You know how much mom and us misses you. We love you so much.

I forgot to utter a prayer for you before we left so here it is:
Our Father, Who art in heaven, Hallowed be Thy Name. Thy Kingdom come. Thy Will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. May my grandmother find an eteranal happiness from now on till forever. Amen.

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Shigeru