Rock and Read 038

Rock and Read 038 feat. Aoi is out. 

Aoi loves to cover his face, lol. I think he's a cool person no matter what other people say. I miss his Twitter so much! I hope he'll make one again. He's a crazy funny guy. He speaks too much of his opinion that's why people had a little trouble of him but I think it's his most appealing attitude. He's way too admirable ^^

lol. This sounds like I'm Aoi's fangirl.

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Shigeru

Wa Lolita

I'm going back to university in 3 days and I'm not so happy about it. I don't know. It feels somewhat gloomy. I miss my friends and I think a lot of fun things are about to happen. I just wish I could stay here for a little longer and do nothing. You know, the feeling that you're not bounded by anything and you could just do whatever you wanted to do no matter how unproductive it was. I'm happy that way, being unable to foresee what might happen and just go with the flow.

I'm currently designing my costume for the upcoming JPOP festival this January 15 so that gives me 2 months to prepare. I planned to cosplay an anime character but I just can't find the 'one' that has an extraordinary appeal on me. I don't know if I should join a contest, I'm not that confident enough but definitely I'm going to have a full blast in this: the wig, the dress, and the make-up. As much as possible I want everything to have my touch on it. You know, giving them 'the me' and that is enough to make me different from everyone else. lol. In short, I just want to be that distinct.

I'll be using my new blonde wig (I really want to be blonde, lol!) and my own design of a Wa Lolita outfit. I'm inspired with these photos from Fanplusfriend and some sources I couldn't even remember to credit anymore (forgive me *bows*).

I decided not to show you the best designs since I'll be basing some of the details there. Of course, I don't want to spoil everyone for what should I wear (save that for the January's blog entry XD). I'll be making my own headdress too though I'm still wondering what kind of fabric or the color mixing I should pick. Feminine colors would surely fit me and my image like light pink, white, and so on. But I want to do a Gothic style since I'm into visual kei. Sometimes what fits me and what I want doesn't match at all, lol. Can you help me decide?

Ooooh, is this my longest blog entry ever?
I have to finish the last chapter of my fanfiction tonight too since I'll be busy with stuffs on university. Ugh, so much to do! Anyway, Happy Halloween! Hope everyone had fun ^^

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Happy Birthday Leader-san!

The transition from October 27 to 28 is always a hell of fun!

OCTOBER 27: Mii's Birthday ♥

I've ate a lot today (mostly sweets) and it made me so fired up.

My mom went to Tagaytay a day before her birthday and we took the opportunity to prepare a surprise for her since she'll be staying there until today. We've decorated the house (oh my, I'm so proud of myself lol) and prepared so much food and presents. Some of my relatives came, it's just a small party since it's too late at night.

OCTOBER 28: Kai's Birthday ♥

I love how the GazettE's fans are still united! We're able to make his birthday a trending topic on Twitter! HappyBDAyKAI was #4 on TT. Yeah! We rock! For those who don't know, he's a drummer with sexy arms and killer smile. I like his adorableness. He's the leader and mother of the band. Every member is such an inspiration to me and he's one of the people I respect the most.


"Whether or not it was going to be a success or failure didn't matter. All of us ran towards Dome with all we got. And that alone was really significant.


In the end, all our efforts were worth it. It wasn't a mistake that we ran towards our dream without being concerned about the end results. Because of that, we were able to perform the live we wanted to."

--Kai (2011), Garish Room 12

CONGRATULATIONS SIXTH GUNS!
GAZErock will never die.

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Dear life, a little happiness won't hurt. I won't be mad if I'll receive some.

lol. I've been writing a lot of frustrations lately and to think I'm on vacation now. It feels like I'm getting broken deeper and deeper. I even swore to be a lot more positive. I guess optimistic people are really the emotional ones. Uwaaaah~ I'm so effin depressed like my mood is below the sea level, like deep deep down the Earth's effin core! Have you ever felt like this? Like something is stuck on your chest that it feels so heavy and tears just slide on your eyes without even noticing. I've even feel like screaming, "Oh fuck life in the whole neighborhood," (which of course I can't)

I've been productive anyway, cleaned my room yesterday and finished another 10 pages on my math logbook today. I want to have a job but I don't think I could handle it once I return to university.

On the other hand, (seems like I have a lot to tell, lol) HALOWEEN is just around the corner! I wonder if I should dress myself but I’m so… Ugggh… sad to do, but I want to! I’ve been fighting with my brain because of it. I’ve been itching to talk and to talk but I just don’t have anyone to listen. Yes, I’m a Rapunzel stuck on her tower right now without anyone to talk to or maybe I should start creating an imaginary friend and play hide and sick with her. *sigh* I’m getting crazy of loneliness!

Darn frustrations. Hate you. I want to be happy you know. I just don’t know how. Maybe I need a friend.

My parents won't help. When these two fight, I wonder why I'm always the one to suffer? I haven't eaten anything for the whole day and I'm the one receiving all of their complains. Life is so great right? Wherever I go, whether school of home, it's all messed up.

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Garden Wedding.

Today, I had so much fun with the koi fishes. lol.

It's my Auntie's wedding day today.
Uwaaaah! I love it! It's a garden wedding with a Japanese furnished house. I actually thought of staying there for the rest of my life. lol. The rest of the pictures are still on my camera. I'm so lazy to upload it. *gets kicked*

Well, I think life gets lighter day by the day. I decided to enjoy these 2 weeks away from university.

I wonder what should I do to relax... hmmm...

Sadder :'(

The truth is… I’m still not okay. It feels like everything is falling apart. I want to be depressed but there are many things that are making me happy. I can’t understand myself anymore. I’m pausing for my happiness… yeah, it’s wrong. But what should I do? If my mind couldn’t erase the worst thing that can make my emotions go upside down. If falling down into the chaos gives me hope that there’s a chance to make it alright, seems like life doesn’t want me to experience happiness. It just sucks.  It feels like I won’t be able to be truly happy again. My sincere smiles are fading and I couldn’t make it stop.  

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My RANT... bow.

Hello, it’s me. It’s been a long time since I write something on my blog. Well, even I’ve said that, I’ll write something depressing.

I don’t know why but every time I decide to work hard for something or to give my best into it, I always get disappointed. I don’t have any luck I guess.

It hurts.

 Let’s take my Thermodynamics subject as an example. My grade should be 1.5 but I ended up getting W (withdrawn). I even got exempted on our finals. Reason? My name was misspelled on his records. GREAT. I don’t want to repeat a subject just because of that stupid mistake of him. I even have that shining shimmering grade on that effin subject.

Let’s move to circuits then. I’m always one of the highest on the class and I ended up getting 2.5 on his subject. Reason? He said that he is so insecure to me. Well, he’s gay and he said that aside of my looks, I was also born as a woman. And it’s not even my fault!
And I was left broken.

I sacrificed a lot for this f***in semester and I ended up getting broken. It might have been better if I cheated or something but I never did! I worked so hard for everything. I sacrificed my social life for my damn studies and this is what I get.

I’m sorry for the rant. I just need to write what I’m feeling right now. University is killing me.

It feels like I won’t be happy for a while. I won’t be able to enjoy my 2 weeks’ vacation.
Can you make me happy?

P.S. WHY DO LOT OF PEOPLE POST DISGUSTING STUFFS ON FACEBOOK? Errr.

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Shigeru

Movies

These are the movies that I love from the month of September to October ♥
I'm sorry for not updating a lot.
I promise to be active soon since my semester break is about to start!

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Most Requested Act of 2010 ♥

NEW BAND!

I'm too busy to write on my blog.

I want to share...
the good movies that I watched,
the awesome musics that I loved and
the precious memories that I earned!

But I CAN'T! *cries*

But I really want to show you this guy!
Ice (Black Gene For the Next Scene )

Man, I can't wait to hear their music!

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